"Gorgeous" (Jan 2011)
I was not feeling good this afternoon...at all. Baby Joy is running out of room quickly. All of a sudden, even three weeks seems rather far away.
I rested in a recliner with David's laptop and read through posts from 2011 and took note of something.
This time last year we took the Littles for a long weekend down to Galveston Island and the Houston Space Center.
The weekend was full of so much fun, excitement, and happiness. I had shared with David that we were expecting again. Shortly after that trip, we experienced our fourth and probably the most emotionally painful miscarriage to date.
It all began on January 25, 2011. (Baby Joy is due January 26, 2012...almost one year to the day!)
My pregnancy with Francis took us to our ultimate lows...soaring back up high...only to crash back down into a dark valley.
Life has almost come full circle and I have experienced so many fruitful moments in my faith over the past 12 months. And to think some of those fruitful moments I thought I was actually abandoning God! Looking back, I now realize He needed me to look at the moment in life differently.
Two posts that really stand out are "A Dried Out Log". and "God, Mary, and Myself".
The emotion of joy only evolved out of sorrow when I completely abandoned myself to God. And that was before I was carrying Baby Joy in my womb.
Kind of deep thoughts for a very pregnant mama who isn't feeling good. I know. But I think it is more like Grace being poured down from Him as Baby Joy's time approaches. And how grateful I am of that Grace and of Baby Joy!
~ Patty ~